August 14, 2013
Shall God not search this out? For He knows the secrets of the heart.[1]
Keeping a secret can be one of the hardest self disciplines to master when you’re young and beginning to develop real friendships. Secrets make or break every relationship we undertake. Understanding the emotions behind the events that generate these surreptitious times will help reveal the power of the bond of secrecy. Sometimes, though, God steps in and lays bare our most guarded issue. Our own fear or even pride can keep us prisoner to problems. Without the help of others, we would not be able to rise above the circumstances to which we are bound.
Years ago I was sitting in an evening choir practice. I was part of a talented and dedicated group of people involved in the worship ministry at our church. Every Thursday evening we gathered for practice. I participated in this weekly gathering for 11 years before we moved out of state to our current home. I always enjoyed getting away from family chores to be with my musical friends. Our times together of learning and harmony were passionate, intense and sometimes very funny. We were a choir family.
The day of this retelling was a cold day in February. My many responsibilities made me late leaving home for practice. When I arrived in the choir room I was not able to sit in my usual seat. It is a common group dynamic when people tend to be repetitive about such routine things as sitting in the same seat for regular scheduled activities. In this situation, I was such a creature of habit. I also dislike being late to any event. That particular evening my normal peace of mind was slightly disturbed because of my tardiness.
I took a seat on the row behind my usual place, picked up the music and joined in the song. Several minutes passed before our director stopped the song and began concentrating his attention on the tenor section to go over parts. One of the foundational choir rules required the rest of us to be respectful and make as little noise as possible during a sectional rehearsal. I sat there for a few minutes, just gathering my thoughts, and I looked over at my friend sitting on my left. She seemed deep in thought. Normally she was very personable and cheerful but this night she seemed lost in her own musings.
The sectional rehearsal dragged on and I began to look around again, just to take notice of all the friends present, when suddenly I had the following thought: “She has no gas in her car.”
I sat still for a few more minutes, turning this information over and over in my mind. A sense of urgency accompanied the thought and when the director turned his attention to another section for review, I began to be uneasy. Feeling insecure about such a message, I finally nudged my friend and cautiously whispered, “You have no gas in your car, do you?’
For a good 20 or 30 seconds, my friend looked at me like I had slapped her in the face. I was upset with myself for saying such a crazy thing to her, when her eyes filled with tears, and she shook her head “no”.
My personal finances were not spectacular at that moment either but I knew that I had to get her a tank of gas. “When we leave practice,” I whispered, “we’ll go straight to a gas station and take care of it.”
My friend hurriedly wiped away a tear and smiled in gratitude. I knew she was in the middle of a marriage breakdown. I slid my arm around her shoulders and gave her a quick hug. When I hugged her, this thought came: “She has no food at home either.”
Sobered by this daunting notion, I knew I could not whisper such a thing, so I took out a piece of paper and quickly scribbled a note: “You have no food at home either, do you?’
This time, her expression changed from the timid smile she had just given me to a broken, puzzled look. Once again tears formed and she shook her head “no”.
My own relationship with my spouse was under great duress. Our finances were severely challenged. My husband was working out of town on his new job and our family was still in Jacksonville awaiting the sale of our home so we could move and join him. He was the official family book keeper. This night, I knew that I was probably going to get a lecture for my actions but I could not let my friend’s needs go unanswered.
“We’re going to the grocery store after practice,” I scribbled back to her. Then I dug in my purse and found a tissue. She wiped her tears and gave me a quick hug back.
As practice wrapped up, I had another revelation: “She is not going to tell you what she really needs.” Then, a list of items began to flow through my mind. I knew she needed pet food and many other personal things. We walked out of practice and made a plan to meet at the nearest store and gas station. As I drove the few miles to the shopping center, her list kept getting longer and her needs more detailed and specific.
We both got shopping carts when we arrived at the grocery store. I had my own grocery needs too. As we started down the first aisle, my friend said, “I only need bread, eggs and milk.”
At this moment, the power of the impressions I was receiving was beginning to give me a great sense of awe and wonder. I knew Holy Spirit was looking at her needs and speaking directly to me about satisfying them. I chuckled and stopped my friend, taking her hand into mine and getting her full attention: “You need these things,” I said, as I began to describe all the items that had gone through my mind. “Are you going to tell me what you really need or are you going to make me do this entirely by the Spirit?” I was joyful by this time and totally in awe of the moment. My list was so specific she finally blushed and shook her head in amazement too.
“This is unbelievable,” she declared as we walked up and down the aisles, and I put things in her cart. We stopped at the pet food aisle and I asked her what kind of food her pets liked. She started to pick up the cheapest food available. I knew her cat and dog would not eat her choices. “They’re not going to like that kind,” I told her. Finally she started to laugh, catching the joy of the Lord that was being offered to us both.
We turned down the seasonal items aisle and I stopped in front of some boxed valentines for kids. “Your daughter needs these for school tomorrow doesn’t she?” I asked.
My friend finally looked at me again and shook her head. “What is your husband going to say?” she asked. She knew how picky he was over finances.
At that moment, a strange message came out of my mouth; one which has burned in my heart over these past years since we left Jacksonville: “I’m sowing for my future,” I replied.
We finished our shopping and then we went to the gas station. My friend hugged me repeatedly. We both marveled over the gift of supernatural knowledge Holy Spirit released in this moment – knowledge which deeply impacted both of our lives.
Many people don’t really understand the concept of spiritual gifts, like I operated in the evening I received such a critical message. First of all, the most important gift God ever gave was Jesus.[2] Jesus explained, “When the Helper (Holy Spirit) comes, whom I will send to you, from the Father (that is the Spirit of Truth – who proceeds from the Father), He will testify about Me.”[3]
The apostle Paul explained that as we become ‘in Christ’ (part of Christ’s spiritual body, His kingdom of believers) we become partakers of heavenly gifts that reveal the presence and power of Jesus in our everyday life. Jesus has acquired the right to give these gifts based upon His supernatural conception, His sinless life, His death and His resurrection.
“But to each one of us grace was given according to the measure of Christ’s gift. Therefore it says, When He ascended on high, He led captive a host of captives, and HE gave gifts to men.”[4]
Paul uses the word doma [Strong’s Greek #1390 – gift, present; from the base of 1325; to give, to greatly modify by the connection, adventure, bring forth, grant, have power, etc.][5] My gift of knowledge certainly did generate quite an adventure that night.
Paul says that these gifts are irrevocably given to us.[6] Once we are endowed with these gifts, God does not take them back. If we ignore, neglect or misuse them, we will be accountable.[7]
Talents, in the parables Jesus shared through out His ministry time, always represent elevated abilities or something given which enabled the receivers to invest or accomplish work, with an expected return. The gospel writer, Matthew, is the only one to use this Greek word talanton and it means a balance of certain weight, or a specific sum of money.[8]
Gifts, on the other hand, represent (but are not limited to) the supernatural abilities that Jesus modeled during His physical time on earth. He declared that we would do greater works than He preformed.[9]
Paul used the word charisma when describing the irrevocable gifts in the book of Romans. [Strong’s Greek #5486 charisma (khar-is-mah); means “a divine gratituity, deliverance from danger or harmful passions, spiritual endowment, religious qualification, miraculous faculty – free gift.”][10] The 12th Chapter of Romans provides the following list:
- Prophecy (prophetic insight, the gift of interpreting the divine will and purpose)[11]
- Practical service through ministry
- Teaching
- Exhortation (encouraging words that build our faith)
- Contributing to the needs of others, giving generously
- Leadership for governing diligently
- Showing mercy cheerfully
Paul starts out with pneumatikos when introducing the gifts in his first letter to the Corinthians. [Strong’s Greek #4152 pneumatikos (pnyoo-mat-ik-os); means non-carnal (not human), ethereal, (divinely) supernatural…][12] He goes back to charisma several sentences later as he develops this most interesting topic and he explains, “But to each one is given the manifestation of the Spirit for the common good.”[13] I believe my friend would agree that our shopping experience that night in February was for common good.
The 12th Chapter of First Corinthians gives this insight: “Now there are varieties of gifts (charisma)…but the same God who works all things in all persons.” The spiritual gifts listed here include:[14]
- Word of wisdom
- Word of knowledge
- Faith
- Gifts of healing
- Workings of miracles
- Prophecy
- Discernment or distinguishing of spirits (evil and good)
- Various kinds of tongues (speaking an unlearned or unknown language)
- Interpretation of these tongues (languages)
- The office or role of apostleship
- The office or role of a prophet
- The office or role of a teacher
- Helps (serving the physical needs of people)
- Administration
It is interesting how Paul then goes on to give the analogy of the human body and how it has many different members but each member really belongs to all of the body and how uniquely the body needs each member. “If one member suffers, all the members suffer with it, if one member is honored, all the members rejoice with it.”[15]
That February night, my friend was suffering and she needed more than a congenial pat on the back – she needed real help. “What good is it, my brothers, if a man claims to have faith but has no deeds? Can such faith save him? Suppose a brother or sister is without clothes and daily food. If any one of you says to him, “Go, I wish you well, keep warm and well fed,” but does nothing about his physical needs, what good is it? In the same way, faith by itself, if it is not accompanied by action, is dead!”[16]
Paul then gives this advice: “Eagerly pursue and seek to acquire (this) love (make it your aim, your great quest); and earnestly desire and cultivate the spiritual endowments (gifts), especially that you may prophecy (interpret the divine will and purpose in inspired preaching and teaching).[17]
On that cold February night, God used His words of knowledge, enabling me to help my friend. What I didn’t know, as I handed her the valentines, is that I would walk a very similar path in September of 2012. My marriage broke down; my husband left to go do his own thing. Numerous times my children and I experienced these same needs. I have been out of the job market for 20 years, primarily being a wife, mother, writer and laboring as a volunteer. Going right back into the work force has been no simple task. I had to open up and share my secret hurt and needs with others to get through this tough time; and indeed, on that February night, I was “sowing for my future”.
I feel confident that everyone who has comforted me in my brokenness will one day reap the same supernatural favor I’ve experienced. “For the word of God is living and active; sharper than any double edged sword. It penetrates even to dividing soul and spirit; joints and marrow; it judges the thoughts and the attitudes of the heart. Nothing in all creation is hidden from God’s sight. Everything is uncovered and laid bare before the eyes of Him to whom we must give account.”[18]
Texts and Books I’ve read on this subject:
Growing in the Prophetic, by Mike Bickle
Surprised by the Power of the Spirit, by Jack Deere
The Beginner’s Guide to Spiritual Gifts, by Sam Storms
The Finger of God, by Mark Rutland
When the Spirit Comes with Power, by John White
Your Spiritual Gifts, by C. Peter Wagner
You May All Prophesy, by Steve Thompson
Romans Chapter 12
I Corinthians Chapters 7, 12-14
Ephesians Chapters 3 & 4
I Peter Chapter 4
[1] Psalm 44:21, “The Comparative Study Bible – The New American Standard Version,” copyright 1999; Zondervan Publishers, Grand Rapids, Michigan; page 1430.
[2] Matthew 7:11, Luke 11:13, John 4;10, Romans 5:15-21, Romans 6:23, Romans 11:29, Ephesians 2:8-22,
[3] John 15:26, Luke 11:11-13; “The Comparative Study Bible – The New American Standard Version,” copyright 1999; Zondervan Publishers, Grand Rapids, Michigan; pages 2747 and 2633.
[4] Ephesians 4:1-13; ibid, pages 3005-3007.
[5] Doma, Strong’s Greek Number 1390; The New Strong’s Exhaustive Concordance of the Bible”; copyright 1995, 1996, Thomas Nelson Publishers, Nashville, Tennessee; page 24.
[6] Romans 11:29; ibid, page 2893.
[7] I Timothy 4:14, II Timothy 1:6; ibid pages
[8] Talanton; “Strong’s Greek Number 5007; The New Strong’s Exhaustive Concordance of the Bible”; copyright 1995, 1996, Thomas Nelson Publishers, Nashville, Tennessee; page 89.
[9] John 14:11-14; ibid, page 2743.
[10] Charisma; “Strong’s Greek Number 5486; The New Strong’s Exhaustive Concordance of the Bible”; copyright 1995, 1996, Thomas Nelson Publishers, Nashville, Tennessee; page 98.
[11] I Corinthians 12:10; “The Comparative Study Bible – The Amplified Version,” copyright 1999; Zondervan Publishers, Grand Rapids, Michigan; page 2934.
[12] Pneumatikos; “Strong’s Greek Number 4152; The New Strong’s Exhaustive Concordance of the Bible”; ibid; page 72.
[13] I Corinthians 12:4; “The Comparative Study Bible – The New American Standard Version,” copyright 1999; Zondervan Publishers, Grand Rapids, Michigan; page 2935.
[14] I Corinthians 12:1-31; ibid.
[15] I Corinthians 12:26; ibid.
[16] James 2:14-17; ibid, pages 3123-3125.
[17] I Corinthians 14:1; ibid, page 2939.
[18] Hebrews 4:12-13; ibid, page 3093.
